The Beginning of Summer

It's been along time since I have written anything. It's about time I start again.

Today is the day after my bone pill day. It usually makes me tired in the afternoon and also gives me a headache. But today I realized that a lot of times on tues I awake up with a 3 day long migraine. I've never put two and two together. Now I'm wondering if the bone pill plays a part in it. I will have to keep a record of this and see how many weeks in a row this happens. Either way I need to trust that God has it under control.

It's now been 1 1/2 weeks since Daniel (my son) got married. I was so busy the week before and the week after that I still feel drained. I over did it and my fibro pain has let me know that it's true. Now that it's over with I was hoping to relax but the garden would not go in by itself, the grass doesn't get cut by itself. Not that I did the grass but I did help with the garden and I planted the flowers. Now I prayer there is enough rain to help it all grow while I'm gone each week during the work week.

Windows & Doors

Just sitting here waiting on my new front and screen doors to arrive. Plus a patio door. Half the house has new windows, it will take some time to finish off the upstairs. Upstairs has alot more windows then downstairs, bummer.

It's a beautiful day outside today, the sun is shining, it just needs to warm up a bit more to make me a happy person.

Happy Day

Today so far has been a great day. Ayden's doctors appt. went well this morning. It was his 2 week recheck from his surgery. Later tonight is girls night out and I can't wait. Dinner and a movie, awww so wonderful!

Strange Day

Today seems to be a strange feeling day. Kind of emotional. No one is home for a change and that does feel wonderful to have some alone time. As I sit here, listening to some worship music I'm finding myself not in the right place with God. I feel like God is saying, "don't waste it child". Maybe a pull to get down on my knee's and have a meaningful talk. When God calls you to talk with Him don't pull away, just do as He asks.

10 Rules For A Blessed Day

1. Today I Will Not Strike Back
If someone is rude, if some is impatient, if some is unkind, I will not respond in a like manner.

2. Today I Will Ask God To Bless My 'Enemy
If I come across someone who treats me harshly or unfairly, I will quietly ask God to bless that individual. I understand "enemy" could be a family member, neighbor, co-worker or stranger.

3. Today I Will Be Careful About What I Say
I will carefully choose and guard my words being certain that I do not spread gossip.

4. Today I Will Go The Extra Mile
I will find ways to help share the burden of another person.

5. Today I Will Forgive
I will forgive any hurts or injuries that come my way.

6. Today I Will Do Something Kind For Someone (But I Will Do It In Secret...)
I will reach out anonymously and bless the life of another.

7. Today I Will Treat Others The Way I Wish To Be Treated
I will practice the golden rule. "Do Unto others as I would have them do unto me" - with EVERYONE I encounter.

8. Today I Will Raise The Spirits Of Someone Who Is Discouraged
My smile, my words, my expression of support, can make the difference to someone who is wrestling with life.

9. Today I Will Nurture My Body
I will eat less. I will eat only healthy foods. I will thank God for my body.

10. Today I Will Grow Spiritually
I will spend a little more time in prayer today. I will begin reading something spiritual or inspirational; I will find a quiet place (at some point during this day) and listen to God's voice.


Luke 10:27

He answered: 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'

We learn three principles about loving our neighbor:

(1) lack of love is often easy to justify, even though it is never right;
(2) our neighbor is anyone of any race, creed, or social background who is in need; and
(3) love means acting to meet the person's needs. Wherever you live, there are needy people close by. there is no good reason for refusing to help.

Remember, today is a gift from God so treat it preciously

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Emotional

I'm feeling a bit emotional today. Battling with envy that I wish I didn't have. From time to time I envy what other people have and I know God hates envy. I guess it just comes back every time I look around my house. Yes house, not home because it just doesn't feel like one. Inside or outside and that's where the envy comes from. I want normal, but what is normal??? I don't want some big mansion, some pricey car but I want what looks normal and not a run down shack and a car falling a part.

Lord help me to be happy where I am in life. You have taken care of all my needs and the envy is a slap in your face and that is not how I want to be.

A Week to Relax

It's been a week of relaxing at the apt. well kind of. Been cleaning and canning. The wedding is done, the birthday party is done and I now I'm trying to find things to do. Really I shouldn't worry about having nothing to do since next week I'll be at home all week and there is lots to do there. Next week is Ayden's 1 year check up and a bucket load of shots. Poor guy is coming down with a cold and this morning is all he wants to do is lay around, no playing for him. Now that is sick...lol he don't even want to play in his ball pit. Still not sure how we are going to get there since my car died last week and there will be no fixing it. It's to old and will cost to much for what it is worth. Hey Deana, I found a website to go check out. It's called, "A Wise Woman Builds Her Home". The link is on my page.

I'm alive

It has probably been a good year since I have even seen my blog. But today Deana got me thinking about writing down my thoughts about my daughter Nicole's wedding. She is getting married in 2 weeks and I found that it takes so much more energy then I ever dreamed. So in the next few days, when I have a few minutes to spare, I will start writing about it.

Just Another Day

If someone told me a year ago that I would be planning yet another party again I would tell them no way, not happening. But a year after having D's graduation party, I'm now planning a baby shower. I hate planning parties to start with so I'm feeling a bit stressed about it. I'm kind of doing this party with J's mom but really its all me. She gave me a few bucks, paid for the church hall and left the rest up to me. I have people making food and when I needed some things made from her side is all I got was one making pudding and her making some jello. Hello, I need more then that. Slowly I'm picking up things like table coverings, gifts to hand out, decoration to put on the tables and gift table. The invites are done and have been mailed out. What a trip those were to make. Hours and hours it took to get them done. I don't have one with me at the apt. but when I get back home I'll take a picture of one and put it on here for all to see. I think they turned out really cute. The invites are in the shape of a diaper. I had to glue a decorative piece to a plain color piece. Then trace the diaper on to the sheet and cut them out. Fold them up. Then I had to make the slits for the over lap part of the diaper. Use a stamper to put on the date and time. Write out the info and type out the mailing addresses. Oh, we stamped the back of the envelopes with "its a shower" and I little blue duck because N is having a boy. Let me tell you, I never thought it could take so long to do 100 invites when I started them. But I like the way they look and I'm thinking of doing the thank you's in the shape of a bottle...lol but not gluing two pieces of paper together...lol

So other then that I've just been making blankets after blankets. Some for Ayden and some for a head start on any baby shower I might go to in the future....lol I'm sure there will be enough in the future now that the kids and cousins and friends kids are all growing up. I figured I'd do them while my fingers can take it.

Finally after almost a year of no work C is back doing the same job for the same company that he quit after getting out of the hospital. I have yet to see him in the last 2 1/2 weeks since he doesn't bother to come home on the weekends. He is spending it with someone I'd rather not say since I don't have to many nice words for her or about her. He just says they are friends. What ever

D still doesn't have a job but he hasn't really been looking to hard. It makes it hard with no driver licenses and that is our fault for not getting it done. Sooner or later

N is 30 weeks PG and for the most part she is doing fine. Now time is starting to go alittle on the slow side. At the beginning it was flying right by. Now I'm like hurry up and lets get this blast off going, but he still needs to bake on low heat for 10 more weeks...lol

There Dee, I hope your happy to see that I have blogged something...lol

Superbowl Party/Movie Day!!

Today my family, Dan & Megan and Jon are going to watch some movies and have snacks like we would have done tomorrow for the superbowl. Hubby and the boys are going back to the apt. tomorrow and will watch the superbowl there. I'm staying home for a few days to go with Nicole to her doctors appt. on Monday. The food is cooking and are just waiting for the guest to arrive.

I'm still dealing with a bit of a cold/sinus, hope it leaves soon. Hope your cold is better Deana.

I Really Do Have a Blog!!

Its been awhile since I have felt like even blogging, but here I am finally.

My life doesn't change very much to blog about. Just doing the normally day to day things. Nothing fun there to blog about. Still going back and forth from apt to home, so that's another boring subject. Still have kids fighting in my house, don't even want to go there...lol I still have pain and trying different meds, so can't say yet where that is going.

The only thing new I can blog about is, I'm going to be a Grandma in Aug. This is my first grand child. The one thing I look forward to is at Christmas time this year. I want a picture of my mom, me, Nicole and the baby together. 4 generations. Hope it turns out nice because I'd like a big picture of it.

I know I'm already sick and tired of this winter. We have had more snow then usual, its been a bit cold. I do believe it can start melting at any time now but I know there is so much more to come.

I will be going to FL this year, pain or no pain but Aunty for sure is not coming home this year. She broke 2 toes just before Christmas and had to have surgery on them. She is at a rehab place building her muscles up since she can't walk on her foot. She still wants me to come down and help out with some things. I do want to go visit my friends in Deltona so I'm not sure how long of a trip this will be, maybe 3 weeks. I will have to plan this trip around a baby shower and a the birth of the baby...lol

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

This year has gone by fast as I look back upon it. I have spent most of the year in pain and hoping next year will be alot less of it. Christmas was nice, but it just didn't feel right, it didn't feel like the normal Christmas. I have heard alot of people say the same thing this year.

Today I just haven't been feeling good, more just depressed I think. I have so much on my mind and things are getting all mixed up in my head, so depression is where I ended up today.

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year and safe travels.

Decorations

This is my very lame Christmas Tree at the Apt

For some reason the saw is blurry, but its neat looking
This is what the snowman tin looks like from the outside before I put the ornaments in them

Top view of the snowman tin

Side view of snowman tin

Finally

I finally started some Christmas shopping last night. I'm not really into it this year for some reason. Just might be from me not feeling that great. But at least it is a start. I know I'm running out of time and have no idea what to get for my exchange gifts yet or for the parents. I guess I'll have to call them and see if they can give me some idea's...lol If not, its gift cards for all..lol

Very Long and Very Sad

It was a very long and stressful weekend and I'm very glad it is over with. It was a very sad time at the funeral home today. When isn't it a sad time, but when one is only 20 years old when one dies makes it a bit sadder. It was hard watching my cousin as he sat in his wheel chair watching his daughter that laid in the casket. Watching a boyfriend with tears as all his dreams were gone. The girl he was going to marry next year can no longer be his. A mother, a brother, a sister hold each other was they wiped the tear from each others face. The girl I seen in the casket wasn't a girl that I remembered, she didn't even look like the same person. All thought the accident didn't injury her face, she still didn't look like herself. Maybe it was the wig they put on her because of her having no hair from the brain surgery, maybe it was that she didn't have her glasses on. But what I believe is that she was no longer here on earth the day of the accident. She wasn't alive at the screen of the accident. Fractured her skill in 2 places, 2 very big brain injuries with no activity from the time of the accident. The machines were the only thing keeping her body alive and that finally said it had enough.

Funeral Home

Today my hubby and I are going to the funeral home for my cousin that died. Such a sad day and a waste of a 20 year old young lady that never got a chance in life to grow up, get married, have kids and grandkids. I just know that her grandma (my aunt) and her great grandpa (my grandpa) are now watching over her in heaven. After the funeral home my hubby and I will head back down to the apt. I will not be able to make it to the funeral tomorrow.

This week I hope to at least start on my Christmas shopping. I have not bought one little thing which is rare for me. I'm usually almost done by this time. I think it is just because my joints hurt so much and I don't want to deal with people or people trying to run me over. But I told my hubby that he is going to help me this year with all the shopping...lol

Jenny

Last Saturday my cousin's daughter Jenny was in a head on car accident which she killed a woman driver as this driver was on her way home from Christmas shopping. Jenny had just moved into her first apt that day and we aren't sure if the bookcase she was taken was the reason for the accident. I understand it kept hitting her in the head. Sat. she had brain surgery to remove fluid on the brain and I know she had fluid around her heart and lungs. Many broken bones but could never keep her stable to address them. She flat lined many time through out the week. The doctors tested her brain and at first there was 3% brain activity but only to fine the wires were backwards, tested her again and got 0%, that was last Sunday. Through out this week things just got worse and yesterday some of her organs were shutting down. The doctor called my cousin (who has very bad MS and in a wheel chair) and his ex-wife into a room and they decided it was time to pull the plug. She died 15 minutes later. She was only 20 years old. At first I decided not to go home till the funeral, but I think maybe we will go home this weekend and go to the funeral home instead of going to the funeral. The funeral will take place 3 hours from here and it is so hard for me to sit in a car that long to start with let alone being the one driving alone.

It's Me

Its getting a bit colder out now. We have some snow on the ground here at the apt. Not nearly as much as home has. It looks pretty anyway.

I'm still doing about the same, I have pain in some muscles and joints but I try to do as much as I can without making me hurt worse. I've been seeing a back cracker once a week and that helps at times. That is until the stress comes from the kids driving me nuts. I don't even have to be at home for that, they just call me up to complain.

I finished the curtains a few weeks ago and also made a few throw pillows. I want to start working on a blanket for down here. That will give me something else to do.

Had a nice time at Thanksgiving and of course my mom had to say something about my hair, like normal. She said woman my age shouldn't be having longer hair. Hello, what does my age have to do with a thing?????

So then on Friday, everything was going fine with my laptop and I shut it down and when I went to turn it on sat. morning, there was no wireless coming from my computer. Its gone, said something like no Internet adapter installed. So I went to drivers to update it and it says it has the right update, but still no wireless. I get back to the apt hoping it was just a home problem and again, no wireless signal coming from the computer. I had to plug in the cord in order to get online. So, needless to say, it will be going in to get fixed tomorrow.

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.

HOME?

Its really hard going back and forth between two homes. So when I say I'm home again, no one has any idea which home I'm really at. The apt. has become my HOME since I'm here 5 days out of the week. So, I'm home again....lol It was nice to get away from my stinky house. The smell from the dogs was just to much for me and from what I understand the smell was even worse before the boys started cleaning up after them the day we went home (Friday). Hello, how long do you really think it takes to potty train a puppy, sorry, not this long. If you own a puppy, then that means you watch them every minute and take them out all the time. Watch for the signs that they may have to use the bathroom. Don't just leave them in the house while you go away when they aren't trained, don't just think you can sleep in forever in the morning and think the puppy can hold it that long. I shouldn't have to put up with this inside my house when the dogs are not mine, but my boys. I can't seem to get anywhere with my hubby on the subject. He likes the dogs but doesn't like what they are doing to the house, so what does he say, NOTHING. Doesn't want to look like the bad guy all the time. Hello, whose house is it???? The kids I guess. So, I made sure I brought more winter clothes and a winter coat to the apt. So I don't have to go home to the HOUSE for awhile....lol

Its Beginning to Feel Like Fall

This week as the cooler temps come in I see more and more leaves changing. I like fall but only if it's at least in the 70's....lol. No such luck this week, its to cold for me. I live in the wrong state, that's the problem...lol

I'm slowly healing from the bone marrow and bone biopsy. The doctor said it is like a bruise but on the bone. It will take about 3 or 4 weeks to heal. I went and had my back adjusted Thursday and my back was so tight. We couldn't do all the normal things with it because of the bone. I tell you what it sure did hurt come Thursday night. I don't go back in till next Tuesday.

I'm still at the apt. only going home if I have to. The kids have taken over my house and it is gross, but I'm not going home on the weekends to spend my time cleaning it. Just not happening, their all to old for that.

Very Sore

I'm pretty sore today. The trip back down to the apt. wasn't all that comfy. Once I got down here I had to drive to Rite Ad and get a prescription filled. I drove myself and that wasn't comfy either. Glad I'm not driving to Ohio tomorrow, I could never do it. So, after my DH took off the bandage this morning, I kind of got a look at my back. It's about a 1/8 to 1/4 inch cut. Looked kind of gross...lol Needs some cleaning up, but I need to keep the bandage on for a few more days.

Bone Marrow Biopsy

I had my bone marrow and bone biopsy done yesterday. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I had the MRI done Thursday night, what a trip the poor guy had trying to get a needle in the vein for the dye..lol, the 3rd time a lady came out and got it in on the first try...lol. So then yesterday morning I had to be to the lab at 7:30 for blood work and then the biopsy was done at 8:00. Plus after that I had an appt at the pain management office....lol So, I did what I was suppose to do yesterday which was nothing and so nothing is what I did. I have to take the bandage off today for the first time and put a smaller one on, I'm curious on what it looks like.

Ok, we are leaving to go back down to the apt. today, but not till closer to evening. I'm still going to the food and wine tasting thing Sunday afternoon in Ohio. I don't have to drive thank goodness. I can just lay in the back if I have to. So that's it for me for now.

It's Been Awhile

Ok, I guess it has been awhile since I even got onto my blog. It looks alittle different since the last time I dropped by. I'm sure there will be a few people that might just pass out when they see I have written something...lol

Its really hard to come on here and try to put what I'm feeling into words. So much has gone on in the last 6 months or so that I almost don't know where to begin. And things are still changing from day to day. One of these days I will start writing a draft of the time line for all my medical changes...lol I can already here Miss Dee saying, "Ya right"...lol But if you come on and read this, please say an extra prayer for me for Friday morning. I have to have a bone marrow biopsy done.

It's Only Me

Ok, today is the day that I finally blog something, even if all I say is nothing much....lol. I'm feeling better then I did for the last few months. I have my good days and I have bad days. Sometimes its good weeks and bad weeks. Last week was a good week and now this week I'm paying for what I did last week.

Last week was N's vacation and she came down to hubby's apt. On Monday she ended up having to take her car in to get new back brakes so we didn't do anything. Boy that cost a bunch. Tues, we went to Binder Zoo in Battle Creek, Mi. That was pretty cool. It was a lot of walking. Then we decided Tues night that we would get up in the morning and head to Chicago. Chicago is only 2 1/2 hours from here. Oh my word, more walking and walking. I was in some really expensive stores and some that I could even buy something at....lolol. But early evening we finally got on the river boat and road through Chicago after dark. The buildings are beautiful after dark. We didn't get home till 3am. Thurs, we drove to South Haven, Mi and went to the beach. More or less a lazy day. Friday morning we had to get up and leave for home since N had to work in the afternoon. But I tell you what, I got up and the muscles in the bottom of both feet hurt like no tomorrow....lolol.

So, this week I'm again back at the apt. We haven't done to much, went to a few stores and that's about it. We might go for a walk later on.

Now this one is for Dee, I finally got the sewing machine out, I even figured out how to thread the needle and now I'm all set to sew some sample fabric. But R got home and I couldn't get to it. But there is nothing much on tv tonight so maybe I will work on it some. But hey, I got that far...lol

Next week I will be home, I have 2 doctors appts. I have many questions, I think I better start writing them down so I don't forget.

Its been awhile

I know it has been awhile since I have wrote a thing in here, but I will do that tomorrow. I just wanted anyone and everyone to know that I'm still alive and feeling a bit better each week.