Emotional

I'm feeling a bit emotional today. Battling with envy that I wish I didn't have. From time to time I envy what other people have and I know God hates envy. I guess it just comes back every time I look around my house. Yes house, not home because it just doesn't feel like one. Inside or outside and that's where the envy comes from. I want normal, but what is normal??? I don't want some big mansion, some pricey car but I want what looks normal and not a run down shack and a car falling a part.

Lord help me to be happy where I am in life. You have taken care of all my needs and the envy is a slap in your face and that is not how I want to be.